pause ; i just want to rewind everything, i just want to go back to the times when everything was simple."I learned that things I always thought would remain, don't. Like loosing someone you love, or missing out on the opportunity. When we find ourselves painted in sadness, we etch for rays of happiness .. I just want to remember. "
now all that's left of me, is what I pretend to be.
this is me.
st. joseph graduate, st. augustine freshman.
trust isn't given, trust is earned.
lose it, lose it forever.
my heart isn't a toy, so don't play games.
not in a relationship, nor am I looking into being in one.
speak up.
Thursday, March 4, 2010 | 1:23 PM
well then, i'm hurting alot right now. not cuz you're gone or cuz what we had before, we won't be getting back. but because all that is happening - & it's my fault. i fucked it up, i lost you, i made my share of mistakes. i'm not gonna put any blame on you, because you did nothing wrong. i could've faught through it, even though it'd hurt - but atleast i got to keep what we had, true ? i know you don't feel the same, & i can't blame you for that either. i messed this up, i know i did. it's just kindof pathetic, again on my part, how i'm trying so hard to put everything back together & seeing how little effort you're putting into this .. it makes me think what's the point. i'm getting to that stage where im just gonna give up. let what happen, happen. i know i've said this alot in the past, & each time, i've come back to this feeling. but i have to be happy, i can't keep feeling this way. i have to keep my head up, & realize what's meant to be will happen, & if it doesn't happen, it wasnt meant to be. once this is all over, & this pain, this hurt, & these tears are gone, i'm gonna be so happy to say that this was just another lesson learned & another thing i've gotten through.