lol, just one of those nights.
Just one of those times where you just don't give a flying fuck anymore. When you're sick of the bullshit. When everything, no matter how small it is - pisses you the fuck off. I'm just so tired of everything & everyone. I'm drowing out my feelings by blasting some music in my ears. It's some what working - for now .. I want to go to sleep, so this night will be over. & I can try & have some fun tomorrow, but I can't. I'm not in the mood to go to bed, because in bed - all I do is think. Think about tomorrow. Think about today. Think about what could be, & what couldn't. Think about the possibilities & the fairy tales - that seem impossible to come true. Think about him. & I don't want to. Because I want to be done with him. But it's so fucking hard now, I'm in too deep. & the more I try to get away, to get out of his bubble - the more I get sucked in & fall for him more. It's impossible to not like him, I don't know what it is. & this is why I'm in the 'don't-give-a-flying-fucking-shit' mood. Because this bullshit is getting to me .. & I'm just sick of it.
No time for Tears.
pcez.